1. Probably wise not to use the term Targeted Individual with either mental/health care workers and law enforcement alike unless there is a more clear empathetic willingness on the part of any worker otherwise to discuss these matters (and hopefully you should have clearer supportive signs from your community on these issues not less...but then likely if your community were more supportive, you'd likely not have seen this sort of attack in the first place). While I hadn't studied by state laws pertaining to mental health and generally what it means to be involuntarily committed, usually I would assume most reasonable this is defined at a given
thresh hold such as are you a danger to self and others. Everyday people may have irrational and paranoid
threats but what should matter is the ideation revolving these thoughts. If you clearer expressed some
intent to harm yourself and others, this is a big issue often times, or at least could be used as legal justifications for something like involuntary commitment. This is a particularly sensitive issue (at least for me for other reasons, one that it can be often the justification used in detaining and effectively incarcerating people on the basis of mental health grounds when they are nothing more then dissidents (or targeted in this parlance).
2. If you were thrust into a situation where you felt panicked otherwise, or experienced fear about a given situation, it is understandable, but likely it is important to stop, take a breather, and assess your situation logically. Likely if you are panicked and fear reacting, you are more likely illogical, not reasoning well enough through your situation, and likely sounding more off the wall to people that may share little of your day to day experience, whom may not be properly trained, where laws are not adequately in place, and so forth. Hopefully, a calm and collected self assessment of your personal situation yields: the extent of where you do feel and find safety/protection, and reasonable steps that you might feel leads you to survive through your situation in the future....
I'll cite some irrational behaviors examples here:
Example. I need to take out a $20,000 to build a bomb shelter to stockpile goods in it for potential fallout for an impending attack. The irrational aspects of this logic. Depending on the degree of fallout, living semi permanent to permanent in a shelter is not likely going to be easy at all. In fact, its not really that sustainable. One you aren't renewing the resources that keep you going well into the future (e.g., consider the vast fields of above ground agriculture required for the yield that you stockpiled that buys you a potential six month lease on life), then consider wearing a gas mask all the time, radiological/chemical/biological attacks may be semi permanent and unless you have your shelter stocked with an air re breather system (that is re converting co2 back to breathable oxygen), you are likely going to need to remove the masks to do something as simple as eat. If you are paranoid because you've had supposedly visions driving you to build a shelter where that shelter is wholly inadequate to really protect you and your family, it might be wise to take a step back from that bit of self guidance. It is next to impossible, if not extremely difficult, for people to live in self sustaining ways alone (unless you are an expert at animal husbandry, raising livestock...which may be just as well useless in a widespread radiological/chemical attack). Much of life is interdependent in some way shape or form on light energy and photosynthesis (making underground living yet another challenge especially without some renewable fuel source...consider electromagnetic disruptions also from radiological attacks that have disrupted that photo voltaic system that you've put up). Livestock live on grass/grain type crops, as do humans. You might be able to develop some underground artificial growth conditions for potential agricultural production, but you need to ensure that it is protected on the radiological ends of things. This is likely to surpass your individual families budgetary means in so far as equipment and production, or in other words, alone you and your family may be doomed to some level of failure at least without some act by God, aliens, or collectively other humans to save you. There are always potentials for failure in any engineered system. Collective study of designs often times lead to their inherent safety, new designs engineered alone that are highly complex run higher risk for failure. There is a lot of logic and reason to consider with a hefty investment that may be spurred out of fear. Sure the stockpile of food could buy you and your family a six month lease on life if something happened, but always that non renewable once used is gone when it is gone, and you will likely find it necessary to re venture back out into the world to find like minds in the reformation of some new community/civilization. Most survivalist in back country, talk not about extended stays semi permanent isolated stays in wilderness but buying enough survival time to get back to civilization.
3. Remember this, you aren't completely a solitary island alone, as in the previous example that I mentioned, you are obviously interdependent on others for your survival, and likely should be well into a given future. Even those that claim to live 'off the grid' are more like scavengers (picking through refuse, begging), they don't live completely free from civilization, or it is very very rare, one could imagine to find anyone surviving on their own. You have to make a decision to trust someone other then you, or a group of people. You can set personal self limits as to the power that you'd allow of others over you, meaning reasonably as in the case of organized gang stalking putting yourself less in the position to be victimized (not to blame you). If you don't feel instinctively comfortable in a given situation, there should be nothing lost, not socializing with certain people that you don't trust. You can measure likewise, the nature of your social interaction with others to the extent of provisioning greater social contact with others whom are respectful and have built up trust with you over time and don't engage in the social behaviors that bother you.
Some added things:
You've managed to survive life this far. Think about the collective experience of your past, that has helped you get by. If you get bad vibes about places and people, go with your instincts and judgement. Don't feel guilty about declining things...in other words, likely if you've been a victim being complicit, and saying yes to everything people ask of you, probably has already surpassed some threshold by now. Though likely at times, you may have to the more opposite extreme found it difficult to relate or socialize with people, it helps to get out side the home (or the little place that you have called sanctuary).
Being targeted, in my experience has meant a number of things...it hasn't meant impending doom or that life is over, but it does mean that awareness of one's own personal security at times has been escalated. This runs an ebb and flow cycle, it is never completely permanent. It may flow with the logistics of those doing the targeting, their socio-political agendas, and anything else which colludes any group of individuals in doing what they do. More likely the encounters I imagine of these sorts that are easiest to perpetrate are hit and run types, since a group may be more likely to disperse after wards and be more difficult to track, as opposed to those groups maintaining some degree of collective cohesion (where paranoia and fear, I'd imagine runs more likely with these groups facing external disruptive social pressures). That means, just because you got victimized one day, doesn't mean that it will be sustained in future days, or it may help to try and reason through self assessment the nature and gravity of something like a stalking attack. Unfortunately, you weren't like other higher profile individuals likely either whom could afford personal security, and the (what I believe) false consensus running in a given society that yes there are people out there with intent to do harm, and even groups of them, that only target high profile individuals....they can cherry pick targets like every day you and I's in the world and the reasons/motives may not always be the clearest. But in time, hopefully you have your wits about you and find ways to manage with or without a secret service or aids to personal security.
Here are some added things things...I've posted on this subject matter in so many words, but I'd repeat this again because it is invaluable.
1. Try not to non constructively dwell on things that you can't change or alone are unlikely to change. For instance, try not to focus on changing the opinions or minds of people that are likely not to change. Losing mental power over a situation may be an obsession with your situation. It is likewise not wrong that you have any thoughts that cause obsession, worry, fear, and so forth, but its how you use these thoughts in the long wrong that may help determine their level of transience. For instance, making the decision instead to avoid a social situation where negative elements are causing potential stress, and instead using that same time reading, self educating, teaching, exercising, or doing other positive activities will likely condition you behaviorally in time so that you are not dwelling on social negativity. You may do what you can, for instance, in the advocacy and reform of existing laws or adding new ones, but be prepared let a situation go after you've done what you can.
2. Freedom is always relative. Try not to limit personal belief that loss in freedom in one area in life means that you can't find some mental or physical freedom elsewhere. Be adaptive to changing conditions. While your energies may be channeled to focusing at times on what you don't have, consider the freedoms that you do have in life. Its an old saying that still applies...some see the glass half empty, others see it half full.
If you have the power to move a chair, then you are freely empowered to do so....I remember reading in a nursing article pertaining to the study of aging (in human populations) that described increased depression in older people whom often felt more depressed when they expected others to handle things for them that they could do on their own. We feel more autonomous when we are self empowered in other words. Then I know its easy saying what I say when I have what I have likewise. This doesn't mean that one should necessarily abandon likewise the advocacy for greater freedoms but being mindful to the practicalities of one's situation in terms of personal autonomy.
1. Try not to non constructively dwell on things that you can't change or alone are unlikely to change. For instance, try not to focus on changing the opinions or minds of people that are likely not to change. Losing mental power over a situation may be an obsession with your situation. It is likewise not wrong that you have any thoughts that cause obsession, worry, fear, and so forth, but its how you use these thoughts in the long wrong that may help determine their level of transience. For instance, making the decision instead to avoid a social situation where negative elements are causing potential stress, and instead using that same time reading, self educating, teaching, exercising, or doing other positive activities will likely condition you behaviorally in time so that you are not dwelling on social negativity. You may do what you can, for instance, in the advocacy and reform of existing laws or adding new ones, but be prepared let a situation go after you've done what you can.
2. Freedom is always relative. Try not to limit personal belief that loss in freedom in one area in life means that you can't find some mental or physical freedom elsewhere. Be adaptive to changing conditions. While your energies may be channeled to focusing at times on what you don't have, consider the freedoms that you do have in life. Its an old saying that still applies...some see the glass half empty, others see it half full.
If you have the power to move a chair, then you are freely empowered to do so....I remember reading in a nursing article pertaining to the study of aging (in human populations) that described increased depression in older people whom often felt more depressed when they expected others to handle things for them that they could do on their own. We feel more autonomous when we are self empowered in other words. Then I know its easy saying what I say when I have what I have likewise. This doesn't mean that one should necessarily abandon likewise the advocacy for greater freedoms but being mindful to the practicalities of one's situation in terms of personal autonomy.
3. Make a goal of feeling some manner of success in your every day experiences. I find that it helps me to keep a structured life, even when people are not there to provide necessary guidance. I find that hobbies, long term and short project goals help a lot. Short term goals provide a sense of purpose and accomplishment, while long term goals keep the idea of a more distant future present in mind.
4. There is an ebb and flow to physical pain. Some days are better, some days are worse. Some measure their own existence by the minutes, and seconds to get by, and others measure by days, weeks, months, and years. Some find empowerment in step 3 above incrementally making goals to get by in survival situations. If you are there, and you are willing to be there, then you are there, there is no not being there or that desire of not being there is erroneous enough since your life is there. Let preoccupations with future pass if it is not constructive to changing anything in so far as mental dwelling.
5. Feel a sense of propriety in your conscience and consciousness. That is, cherish the good moments in life. Cherish the good purpose in your life. If there is an ounce of good to you in this world, it is that you have had such thoughts and actions.
6. Try not to fall into the pitfall of self-deception...aptly the number 6 in my list. It applies to our personal thinking. We are fallible in nature as humans. We are limited in thought, and outside the personal context of experience (and even inside this boundary), we maybe deceived self or otherwise easily. It may be much easier to think our situation better or much worse then it really is. Collectively if we rely upon others who are fallible in decision making to help us form judgement, we may still collectively make mistakes in our wisdom and judgement, and these sorts of things happen, one could imagine daily. How do you live your life then? Do you draw more from the strengths of personal judgement limiting the sphere and influence of your judgement more tangibly on things you can more readily discern and measure, or are you more likely to influence the spheres of others in more global ways, with respect to things that you can't tangibly see with your own sets of personal experience? Do you help people locally or do you dwell on things well outside of local boundaries that you rarely experience firsthand? There is a bit of philosophy on this point...some reads with a degree of greater cynicism or skepticism, while others could potentially find illumination by this. I personally found myself wondering about my attentions given, for instance, to world and national politics at times past. I found personally that I felt much better when I focused more intently on my personal existence...knowing the autonomy that I had in my personal 'local' life as opposed to preoccupations with things that I couldn't directly witness or see for myself and allowing my thinking and mindset to be more strongly influenced by outside rhythms. That we know rightly when we are or are not responsible for something in life. You shouldn't feel guilty for things that you haven't done and aren't responsible for...often times, I've felt that I've witnessed enough propaganda by this personally.
I could go on and on with a lot self help stuff that you probably already know in your mind...
Or in other words, if you are learning what the program is here, it reads like this, the old life wasn't likely working for you, and you are going through a re adaptation phase. Maybe you've felt that you just found out the world weren't what you expected. Personally I've found myself re adapting in different ways. I've gone through phases of wading in the water as opposed to swimming, needing to take a step back, and yes, I've taken that step back for a number of years now.
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