Thoughts on the running stream

Why did four women kill themselves by starvation?

It seems these suicide pacts invoke a suggestive commonality.  Not unlike other cults coming to mind, Solar Temple peoples in France, or down in Southern California well over a decade or more.  People that you imagine were so sickly closed knit to the extent of not really being heavy communicators.  Then I were thinking of this strange awful tradition in Nepal that I had read of where literally as tradition would hold, have a man engaged in what others from a given outside as a social consent to self isolation and self torture.  Here, the man suffers himself by cutting himself off from the world, except to receive food and water.  He isn't from his presumably young age supposed to talk to anyone, walled off in a given cave that would serve as home for the remainder of his life.  To my knowledge generally, he isn't really to be groomed except if he is to do this for himself.  It would seem the sort of setting for a given horror film.  That is, in never leaving such a place, or really beyond the time that such self imposed and socially consented upon barricade were complete, he would have stimulation from a given outside world...would he have gone blind in the darkness eventually, if ran out of matches?  Or the sort of inverse of Plato's cave, which one recalls in a Saramago horror piece.  There isn't really any easy explanation is there?!

   I could recall walking into a supermarket so many years ago and seeing this checkout clerk person that reminded of the crazy 'shhhh' lady of shutter island, maybe one could be taken aback, but you generally don't what to make of it.   As if any of these impressions invariably left one in the same ways proceeding as usual.  Here, a man like Goedel starves himself to death, fearing any other cooking but his wife's own cooking.  You see, then, that while on the one hand, reasoning rationally that he were likely paranoid, but then you understand later (reading a little into his past)...shh...he fled nazi Germany.  It seems that self survival mechanisms could leave these strange awful quirks in us, or that in the long term adrenaline pushing survival hadn't meant being better long lived.

Here, one becomes more reliant upon these ideas, having looked upon something of the past, as if to resurface blurry and faded memories, and often times what should be crystallized so sadly in mind, could be experiences of trauma at times, where other memories hadn't seemed clear enough.  If it weren't that these were so commonplace relative to any other time.  Fortunately it seems for most, even the traumatic memories fade over time, or it seems on the other hand, survival means not being rational but highly rational in a way, or that delving thought much to this extent were much fuller contemplation with respect to human nature, the sort of wisdom that throw one into a lengthy fit of depression.  At least I am here, neither depressed, nor in evidence fearful on either account, and generally ignorant of conditions in many ways of condition, or at least exemplified if the reverse were true, likely one should truly write less, unless this were on some irrational accord, the paradoxical nature being.  Were part of this owing to a form of behavioral conditioning, or were this the strange nature of existing, or that if one should not have to suffer needlessly, one were given reprieve...here one could recall, the other having tremendous vision standing upon the funeral pyre, dancing as it were in the flames while feeling little suffering.  It seems that heretics could be spared, and who were spared is yet another mystery.